Number 33: Receiving
My family and friends threw me a birthday party and during the planning I became aware that I was shutting down emotionally, wishing I could call the party off. When I meditated on what was turning my heart cold, I discovered it was a very old shame reaction I thought I’d healed … a feeling of unworthiness and undeserving of being celebrated. Obviously, my sense of shame needed more work. So, at the party, I committed myself to being vulnerable whenever I started to shut down emotionally, moving through it toward opening my heart to receive whatever form of love someone was extending at the time. It was uncomfortable but gradually those moments of receiving became the best birthday presents I’ve ever received.